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5 Ways Abuse Affects You, Even When It is Over

Photo credit for the featured photo goes to Veronica June Photograpy

The affects of abuse linger far after the actual abuse ends. If you are still battling the aftermath, know that you are not alone and that other survivors stand with you!

This is a very important post and it is going to take a lot out of me to tell this story. I was sexually abused and emotionally abused, and I have witnessed physical abuse to family members too many times to count. This is my first time publicly announcing my #MeToo story. So I pray that this post touches someone else because of my bravery.

Being abused is definitely makes you a different person. Here are a few ways it changes you

1. It changes the way we look at others

Survivors are mostly abused by people they know, trust, and maybe even love. So once that person violates their trust in that way, it is very hard for them to trust anyone or let anyone close to them again.

We begin to look at others as a possible abuser and guilty until proven innocent.

Sexual Abuse

As a survivor of child sexual abuse, I am afraid to have children. I never want to bring children in this world with just anyone. I have to know that the man I have children with will protect my child at all costs. That there will never be any situations that put my child in harms way.

Knowing the lack of longevity of relationships, I am afraid of having a child, breaking up with the father and then trying to date again, potentially exposing my child to a predator. Even dating now, I very rarely had any of the guys I dated around my younger nieces or cousins

Emotional Abuse

As someone who experienced emotional abuse. Having someone constantly use your emotions against you as a means to do what they want you to do, makes you never want to allow anyone into your heart again. You become afraid that if you love someone again, if you make sacrifices for them again, they will manipulate you and hurt you the same way the last person did.

PhysicalAbuse

To point out the obvious, physical abuse makes people more jumpy and reactive,

2. It changes how look at ourselves

Even people who have learned about trauma and maybe even work to educate others on trauma, are changed by trauma. With the emotionally abusive relationship, I sometimes recount every mistake I made and every sign that I missed. Maybe if I would not have done X, he could not have done Y. 

Clearly, I was stupid for not noticing how he was taking advantage of me. How could I be so caught up in those moments that I actually believed that he loved me. I should have known he didn’t love me. I should have known that he was capable of being the slime that he turned out to be 

One of the things this person did is recorded a very intimate moment between us and threatened to use them against me. That was over 2 years ago and I still feel like a fool because I should have noticed the camera. 

The amount of emotional abuse I have done to myself after that situation, is definitely more intense than he was ever able to do

3. It changes how we respond to what others may view as normal events

We respond to touch differently

Even though it has been years since I was molested, there are still times in my adult life when I am trying to be intimate with a significant other and my mind may think back and I may pull away from them.

We respond to anger differently

If someone is mad at me for something I deem insignificant, I may not even talk to them about it. In fact, I may never talk to them again. 

For example, someone was upset with me for not returning their text fast enough so I never spoke to them again. He was a relatively new acquaintance, and I thought that he was already showing signs of control and I no longer wanted to be friends with him. I know to some people, I may have overreacted, but I never want someone to have the power to make me feel bad for being normal or being myself ever again.

 

4. We do extensive research on people before we fall too hard

After my own experience, and founding out that someone I had gone out with a few times was a statutory rapist and a child sexual predator (of victims as young as 8 months old), I make sure I research EVERYONE who I am interested in dating. 

I check Google, the local department of corrections websites for recent convictions, and The National Sex Offender Registry.

I have trained myself to br=e much more careful.

5. The memories never go away

No matter how much time passes, the memories never go away. They creep up on you when you least expect it and it definitely has an affect on your life. As we grow, however, we learn how to cope and hopefully get some form of therapy if we need it.

Question of the Week

Can we ever heal from abuse

Answer of the Week

Answer by Veronica, Blogger| Website  |

A complicated question calls for a complicated answer.  Of course, one can heal physically from abuse, but in some cases, scars remain.  The same can be said for emotional abuse. There is healing, but there are almost always scars left.  Sometimes those scars are ugly, and sometimes they are itchy and bothersome. Sometimes they just quietly exist, serving as a reminder of what we survived.  Once a scar is created, it can take years to fade; rarely will it disappear completely.

Just as there are creams and lasers designed to lessen physical scars, there are ways to reduce mental scars, as well.  The support of positive people in the form of a trusted friend or a support group can go a long way in healing. Also, solid counseling from a professional can help.

Everyone has a choice about how they deal with their scars.  Either live with them and let them potentially affect every moment of life, or work to minimize them and make them take a backseat to better health.  Some people let their scars show proudly to show what they’ve been through.

No matter how a person deals with their scars, there can be healing through treatment and acceptance that they exist.  In the end, I think there can be healing from abuse, but seldom do we forget, and that’s what pushes us to move forward into healthier daily life.

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Final Thoughts

These are the lasting symptoms after abuse has taken place. If you are interested in learning the signs of abuse, CLICK HERE

If you are in need of assistance due to abuse here are some phone numbers for you to start with.

National Sexual Assault Hotline

Rainn.Org

 1-800-656-4673 (HOPE)
 
National Domestic Violence Hotline
1-800-799-7233.
 
National Suicide Hotline
1-800-273-8255
 

Crisis Text Line

CrisisTextLine.org

Text CONNECT to 741741

 

Text the Police

If you are in danger and cannot speak out loud, you can text “911”

 

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